Bear with me!

OK, so I know I have been inconsistent at best and downright unreliable at worst - but you will just have to bear with me.

Over the past few months I have been mulling over a change in direction for my blog, although, in truth, it may be more accurate to say choose a direction for my blog! Because of this lack of decision and general laziness on my part, let's be honest here, there have been almost no posts since May and I now don't know where to begin again!

I will be redesigning Waiting for Rain this month and promise to be back to my old sparkling self soon; hopefully with a sense of purpose and a little clarity.

In the mean time, head on over to my friends' Jay, Holly & Shauna's new venture: Business2Blogger and join in the fun... I am secretly hoping that I will win the Blog Makeover and save myself weeks of agonizing decision making on fonts / pictures/ buttons etc.. hint hint Shauna!!

Where My Heart Is...

This is actually where my heart should be, where I am setting my face and standing on Truth.

This past week has been hard, in so many ways, for all of us. Our friend and pastor, Matt Chandler, has been diagnosed with a tumor on his right frontal lobe and is having surgery on it this week. We are fasting and praying for God to heal him and show Himself merciful, all the while striving to rest in the overwhelming goodness of our God in all situations. He, in His infinite wisdom and mercy, uses the diverse joys and sorrows of this world to loose our hands from this world and place them securely in His.

This is my prayer today, that we would know Him for the unsurpassed treasure that He is and value His Presence above all else.

May your day be filled with opportunities to see the Goodness of God in all things!

Love & Blessings

Ally

Weekend Reflections

Yesterday I watched a much loved member of our church family bury her four year old son.

I don't know what to say to make it OK, I can't even begin to know the depths of her sorrow and all I can do is go home and hug my four year old even tighter. The service of celebration forCaden's life was led by Matt Chandler, The Village Church's senior and teaching pastor, and was a beautiful evocation of what we were all feeling; that while this is desperately sorrowful and painful, there is hope and life offered in our deeply held faith that says that, one day, Jesus will make this all right, that He will fix what was broken in the fall of man and that He will reconcile all things to Himself.

"Lord, you are good and you do good" Psalm 119:68

Today, I am flooded with the realization of what we have, in two wild and unruly boys, is precious and to be treasured, yet also that they are not "mine" but rather on loan to me until such time as they are called home again. I find myself just a little more patient in the light of this weekend, a little more willing to allow the dust to take over my home in exchange for a few precious minutes playing trains or cars or light-sabre-carrying-ninjas. I am honored that I have such wonderful children and that they want to play with me, what could be more important?

So, my prayer today is that I will be more patient and more willing to take the time to point them to Jesus and his goodness and grace, and that I would fulfill the task given me of raising them to be men of faith and compassion and mission. Because the Lord is Good and He does Good to us all the days of our lives.

Ally

... and in other news...

OK, so I realise that I have been remiss in my communications. There are many reasons, most of them extremely valid and interesting, but, for the sake of expediency, I will spare you!

As my few faithful friends with exceptionally long memories will remember, we are in a period of change... adaptability not being one of my strong points, I have taken a couple of months out for "head space" and, well, to date, it appears that it has been working. The aforementioned change is well afoot, and after much prayer, tears, anguish and general panic, I am prepared... prepared to lean on my Saviour and trust that He the the power and grace (for grace, read patience with the exceptionally-slow-on-the-uptake!!) to carry me through this.

I have been with my family in the west of Scotland for the last few weeks and this much loved haven has provided me with much needed space, not to mention sleep! The boys have had a blast - nothing quite beats 300 acres you can call your own private playground! And now we are on our way home, just 36 hours will see us on the plane back to Texas and I shall be glad to be home, glad to get on with our lives, glad to see my patient, loving, lovely husband, glad to be able to walk into the next phase of our lives with hope not fear.

I know I am being obtuse and have not told you much about this next phase, but for now, we are going to have dinner and I shall catch up with you all as soon as I have a moment in the next couple of days.

In the meantime... take care, read my friends' blogs and comment away!!

Change

Change is a tricky thing, we don't really like it, we need it so badly that we can't see straight, and it is TERRIFYING! (Yes, I know I am shouting!!) My husband, clever, sensitive, brave-hearted man that he is has been plugging away at the same thing for years and it is killing him... So, why, you may ask am I nervous about him changing paths? I suppose it comes down to lack of faith, not in him, but in my ability to roll with the punches.

You see, I always considered myself flexible, resilient and able to handle all comers; until recently. The past months have taught me that I rely a great deal on my ability to plan, to reason out the most likely outcome and prepare for that. Well, if you have been following for any length of time, you will know how that has been working out! So now we face an unpredictable future and I have to find my trust in a reliable place.

The only one I can think of is my Saviour, the one who always catches me when I fall, the one who will never leave me, the one who was and is and is to come. His Presence is our future, our present need and our past joys. I long for His touch to be the central theme of my life, because, you see, it is the only thing that truly lasts, that has the ability to transcend the difficulties of this life.

It is going to be quite a ride, but He is the supreme comforter and my constant joy.

Yours in Hope

Ally

Prisoner of Summer! Finally! A good excuse for lackluster blogging!

Thanks to Em for the above, I am officially imprisoned, though I may be back in a more regular fashion come July.. think rain and the north of Scotland!!

But, for now, I will check in with the occasional postcard.

If I can find the stamps!

Happy Summer All!

It's been a while....

So, I know it has been a while.

OK, OK, an age, since I posted... pause for massive gaping hole where you all realize you hadn't noticed that I haven't posted in a while... OK, so, where were we?

I know that my last post was a little stark, a little on the "so-real-now-we-don't-know-what-to-say-to-you-at-Starbuck's" side of real.  And, while I know that there is some platitude about time healing all wounds that would fit nicely in here, that just isn't the truth.

The truth is, (deep breath), the TRUTH is that I didn't know what to write, I didn't know how to come back to witty repartee and banter from where I have been, honestly I still don't.  But what I do know is that I have been so touched and humbled by the concern and prayers of you all that I don't want to leave you with the impression that I have crawled under the covers and have yet to emerge... (although, that does sound tempting some days!).

A little while ago, I woke up and realized that that day, the first thing that I thought of, the thing that defined every part of my day, was NOT that I had just had a miscarriage.... and that was a good day.  

And then I realized that I am not alone, as one dear friend pointed out this week, sometimes we don't know why we go through stuff until someone else goes through it, and we realize that we get to hold their hand, give them a hug and offer hope that there is light at the end of that particular tunnel.  

So, thanks for all the support and henceforth I promise to be impressively happy...

Or Not... but either way, I hope you come back!

Ally